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bloodismymedium · 2 months ago

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🎀 Mona Lanius Childhood Headcanons🪳

CW: Themes of child abuse and neglect, bullying, self harm, incest, drug use and animal death.

🎨 Mona was severely isolated as a child due to her deformities and odd mannerisms, the other children in her neighborhood were either terrified of her or would bully and mock her relentlessly, some even went as far as break into her home to “get a closer look” and would call her ugly and a freak right to her face. There was once an incident where Mona cowered and cried in the corner of her room while a group of kids made fun of her and pulled her hair, not even trying to fight back until one of the boys decided it’d be hilarious to destroy a painting she worked really hard on, something in Mona just snapped. She shrieked like a wild animal and lunged at the boy, scratching at his face hard enough to leave huge, deep scars and she nearly took one of his eyes out. Safe to say, the neighborhood children left her alone after that…

🎨 Mona only had one friend in her entire childhood and it was unfortunately very short lived. A girl Mona’s age approached Mona while she was playing with bugs in her mother’s garden and told her that she was cool for practically disfiguring that boy since he was a terrible bully that tormented the girl and the two bonded over it. Mona and the girl would even find some common interests and become close friends for a couple of weeks until one day while they were walking through the forest together and they found an injured bird that was missing a wing on the ground and Mona picked it up and ate it alive, frightening the girl and causing her to run away in terror. As a child, Mona thought this was because her friend wanted to eat the bird and Mona offended her by not asking first, naturally, Mona tried to reconcile her friendship by sending her a box filled with dead birds and a beautifully written apology letter. Mona fell into a depression when her friend stopped seeing and talking to her 😔

🎨 Mona’s parents weren’t abusive in the traditional sense, they were very rich and they gave Mona absolutely everything she could ask for, were supportive of her interest in art and very proud of how intelligent she was but they were also very shallow and arrogant people who secretly resented the way Mona looked and could hardly look her in the eye most of the time, they were also very ashamed of her simply for the way she looked and essentially kept her a secret, keeping her out of public eye, homeschooling her etc. Mona’s parents tried to make Mona as well-rounded as possible by having her learn many talents and keep her busy with hobbies in an effort to have her “make up” for the way she looked and her strange habits. Mona would eventually learn about how her parents truly felt about her when she turned thirteen, resulting in them becoming her first victims and the catalyst of her blood soaked legacy.

🎨 Mona was actually very sweet as a child. She was shy, polite, very well rounded and intelligent for her age and was the definition of “wouldn’t hurt a fly” but she did have a lot of weird habits and mannerisms that made most people creeped out by her, like her tendency to run on all fours when she wanted to get somewhere fast, her appetite for raw meat, a strange fascination with blood and organs, a tendency to talk to herself and her obsessive compulsive need to draw or paint. She also had terrible impulse control and would end up doing concerning, sometimes harmful things like when she poisoned the cocktails being served to her parents’ friends with prescription drugs to see what would happen, and not even out of malice either, she was just curious is all.

🎨 Mona was raised as a pagan as her parents were neo-paganistic but with no discernible religious affiliation in particular, they believed in a lot of Wicca-like traditions that feel like they were cherry picked from multiple pagan cultures. Mona and her parents didn’t believe in any deity in particular but believed in spirits and everything in nature having a soul, from animals to plants and they had a lot of strange traditions and beliefs such as drinking a little of each other’s blood every day, ritualistic drug use, strict dietary restrictions and even incest as Mona’s parents were brother and sister and they too were incestual offspring. Mona doesn’t believe in any of the mumb jumbo that her parents taught her anymore but still practices certain things about her family’s strange religion either out of habit or as an act of affirmation such as sacrificing an animal of some kind before committing a murder for “good luck”.

🎨 Mona knew how to grow weed and make crack and heroin since she was eight years old, learning both from her parents as they were addicts who did every kind of drug you could think of for pseudo-religious, “recreational” purposes and they taught Mona how to make these drugs from a young age just as they were, among other things you probably shouldn’t teach a child how to do. She would eventually inherit her parents’ drug problems as she now does every drug under the sun but weed and heroin are her usual go-tos.

🎨 Mona loves Alice in Wonderland. She loved the story ever since she was a little girl and she often used it as an escape to get away from her lonely life of either being mocked and tormented by neighborhood kids or being neglected by her emotionally distant parents. She’s even done paintings of some of the characters like the Cheshire Cat and Mad Hatter.

🎨 Mona had a strong kinship with monsters as a child, she loves characters like Medusa, Frakenstein’s Monster, the Creature from the Black Lagoon etc. and she would relate to them a lot due to being an outcast who was treated like a monster by most people, she would watch horror films like Dracula with the full conviction that they are the real protagonists. She cried for hours when the shark was killed at the end of Jaws🥺

🎨 Due to her highly sensitive skin and eyes, as well as her aversion towards people, the only times Mona would go outside beyond the boundaries of her home would be very early in the morning before the sun came up or very late at night. Mona would eventually become something of an urban legend in her community due to the few people who would catch glimpses of her during these times, some even believed she was a ghost due to her pale skin and black hair.

🎨 Mona had little to no self-esteem as a child, she hated the way she looked and wished she could change her appearance somehow. The only part of herself that she embraced was her hair and would spend hours brushing it and decorating it with ribbons and hair clips. One of the few fond memories from her childhood that Mona has were the mother-daughter moments where her mother would do her hair for her and style it in different ways. Her self-esteem would get so bad that she would resort to self-harm, usually by cutting herself, repeatedly calling herself “disgusting” while she did so.

🎨 Mona would never admit to it now but she was a total girly girl as a child. Kid!Mona liked wearing the kind of pretty, frilly dresses that you would see on porcelain dolls, put as many ribbons and bows in her hair as possible and she loved the color pink. Mona’s inclination towards a traditionally feminine way of clothing as a child was partially due to her low self-esteem as she had a desire to come off as more “pretty” like some of the other girls in her neighborhood. Mona really was a goth girl on the inside but a pretty pink princess on the outside (◡‿◡✿).

🎨 Mona also had a healthy interest in photography and had a good eye for it too. The subject manner she liked to photograph were typically dark and macabre in nature, such as roadkill and the local cemetery was one of her favorite places to go and take pictures. She has also taken pictures of the children and other people in her neighborhood without their consent, usually while they’re in their homes minding their own business, sometimes going as far as breaking in to get a better shot.

🎨 Mona had a stutter until her late teens. She could barely get a word out most of the time and was usually too shy to talk period, she was however very articulate when it came to writing and she would write down practically every thought she’d have, having filled out multiple diaries and her writing and vocabulary was very eloquent for her age too.

🎨 The cemetery used to be one of her favorite places to hang out too. She would literally frolic and play like a kid would in a park and would pretend to talk to the ghosts of people buried there, flat out having tea parties right in front of their tombstones too. Her frequent trips to play in the cemetery would result in rumors that the cemetery was haunted as people who came to the graveyard to pay respects really late at night seeing this pale little girl with black hair and equally pitch black eyes and believe she was an actual ghost.

🎨 Mona fucking loved Halloween as a child and not just because it’s centered around all the creepy and scary stuff that she loves so much but because it was the one time of the year that she was able to go out and just be a kid, she would always make her own costume by hand too, said costumes would sometimes be unique characters or entities that she made up. She of course really gets into other Halloween traditions like carving Jack O’ Lanterns and she’d make so many that her parents eventually had to set a limit of how many she can carve every year. Mona still likes Halloween quite a bit as it’s very nostalgic for her and one of the few scarce things about her childhood that she looks back on fondly.

🎨 Mona has always had a fascination with masks and the metaphorical meaning behind them, another reason why she loved Halloween as a child as she used to take the costumes people wore literally, believing that they were embracing their inner Id like what her parents told her, which is why they dressed up as well. Masks were one of many things Mona collected as a child and she even made a couple as well, usually when she was working through something, making masks that represented a very strong emotion she was having

#urbanspook #urbanspook the painter #the painter #urbanspook au #headcanons #mona lanius #my main goal here was to break my fellow mona enjoyer’s hearts😈#kid!mona is supposed to be anywhere from six to ten years old in these headcanons just in case anyone was wondering #also maybe this is obvious but she’s very much autistic coded in this

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